Time is the enemy

They stopped dad's chemo treatment. They said all it was accomplishing was making him sick. He had more spots show up and they are going to do more testing on them. Mom is to meet with a social worker today to discuss his options (home or hospice). She seems pretty glum. I still have not fully digested this yet. It does not feel right. He deserves more than this. My chest hurts when I think about it. He has had such a hard life and now he will have a hard death. Drowning in your own fluid seems so......Such a betrayal.

My brother is coming down to see dad this summer with his boys. He was going to spend the summer in Croatia, but has decided that he is needed here. I feel relieved he is coming. I often wonder if we need to find his other child, but last I heard she was leaving somewhere near Munich, or outside of it rather. I guess that will be my sister's job. She has been the only one to keep even remotely in touch with her. Black sheep to blacker sheep.